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it's been a year of living dangerously.

my life previously consisted of nothing but quiet. life at home with the parents. school, work, etc. a little travel. but nothing else, really.

then this year.... this year, there was the flumonia for january. the crazy D/s relationship in february. falling in love and getting too close to someone whose heart i broke and who broke mine in return. then.... a month of flirting insanely with dozens of wrong guys. falling back in love with someone i'd waited for years... only to have my heart shattered again because he was a coward. i lived dangerously, recklessly under my parents' radar.

i got myself into one bad situation after another. and through it all, i kept foolishly going along, believing that... someone out there actually loved me back and wanted me. that there was something good out there. so i gave up things precious to me and now i sit at the end of a year of living dangerously and all i have to show for it are long stares into the distance and a map of scars inside where i used to be whole.

it's a shame i'm so reckless with my heart.

Date: 2010-10-28 08:50 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] teenagewitch.livejournal.com
yes but you try. I think trying says more about someone than anything else.

Date: 2010-10-28 09:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] fortitudehigh.livejournal.com
I hope things start getting better for you soon.

Date: 2010-10-29 03:45 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lawchicky.livejournal.com
Aww, I'm sorry that your heart has been so broken lately!

Date: 2010-10-29 08:34 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] joeymichaels.livejournal.com
Reckless you may be, but awesome intro, though.

Date: 2010-10-30 01:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gaea-rising.livejournal.com
Living recklessly is better than not living at all. Good to meet you.

Good luck!

Date: 2010-10-30 01:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] antianhedonia.livejournal.com
I'm interested in reading more from a fellow reckless lover.

Hello and good luck!

Date: 2010-10-30 04:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] alphaloria.livejournal.com
2010 has also been an epic bitchslap for me. Misery loves company, etc. *fistbump*

Date: 2010-11-01 09:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] worldofcharlie.livejournal.com
d/s relationships can be intense...sometimes you gotta be a bit reckless..otherwise nothing happens...

Nice to meet you

Date: 2010-11-01 11:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] solstice-singer.livejournal.com
Sometimes, I feel reckless too. I look back at this past year, and wonder what I have to show for any of it. Sometimes, I don't think it's very much at all.

Date: 2010-11-02 03:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pixiebelle.livejournal.com
Awww I really hope you manage to put everything back together. This year has been a whirlwind for me too. It's crazy how so much can change in a short span of time.

Date: 2010-11-03 12:11 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kutiechick.livejournal.com
Great intro -- and hey, maybe that year of living dangerously can give you some good stories to share. :)

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