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[wellownedbkup]

so i got a letter from john, who's decided to wait three years for lynne. damn.


-*-C . U . R . R . E . N . T-*-
*Current Time* 3:09
*Current Clothes* black tee, white long sleeves, scarf, jeans, jean jacket and sandals
*Current Mood* pissed and elated and bored
*Current Music* just heard fall out boy--dance dance.
*Current Taste* *cough*
*Current Make-up* none
*Current Hair* soft bun. i need to rewash my hair.
*Current Annoyance* coughing?? am still sick
*Current Smell* wet pants. it's rainin
*Current Favorite Artist* alway claude monet for art, and not sure on the musicart.
*Current Desktop Picture* a vintage cirque du soleil.
*Current Favorite Group* fall out boy,
*Current CD in CD Player* coldplay x&y.
*Current Refreshment* none...
*Current Worry* that i'll be a lonely spinster forever?

---L . A . S . T . P . E . R . S . O . N---
*You Talked to* my granmother via phone
*You Hugged* probably my mom.
*You Instant messaged* jamie! james butler.
*You Yelled At* my sister i think. she's being an ass lately
*You Kissed* who knows. maybe my mom last night. but no guys. not since i messed with tommy.

---F A V O R i T E---
*Food* indian. we're going to shalimar on sunday afternoon.
*Drink* chai and oolong and now starbucks espresso and cream doubleshot
*Color* black, red, blue
*Album* the 10th anniversary of les miserables.
*Movie* narnia, charlie and the chocolate factory, dirty dancing havana nights, etc.
*Shoes* dunno. i miss my brown spanishy heels, and my hooker strappy stillettos... but i love my doc martens
*Candy* dark chocolate.
*Animal* i'm a cat person. ya know, lions, tigers, lynx, leopards...etc.
*TV Show* csi, alias, jeopardy, dancing with the stars
*Card Game* spades, poker, texas hold em
*Dance* i'm in love with the rhumba and the waltz.
*Song* see favorite album
*Vegetable* broccoli
*Fruit* pineapple
*Cartoon* ... um... ones that were comic books. and yu gi oh

***A R E Y O U***
*Understanding* i try
*Open-minded* on occasion
*Arrogant * i hope not
*Insecure* alays
*Interesting* not according to lacey
*Hungry* not at the mo
*Friendly* i would say so
*Smart* when need be
*Moody* once or twice a month
*Childish* sure.
*Independent* hardly
*Hard working* more like lazy but efficient
*Organized* not bloody likely
*Healthy* no. see me be sick.
*Emotionally Stable* who're you kidding?
*Difficult* i've been told so
*Attractive* only in my dreams
*Bored Easily* especially lately
*Messy* can't be bothered to fix it.
*Thirsty* actually... yeah
*Responsible* pssht
*Obsessed* not really
*Angry* no
*Sad* i'm working on it
*Hyper* only now that i got a letter
*Trusting* not even
*Talkative* nah

:::W h O d O Y O u W a N t t O:::
*Kill* my sister the ass
*Slap* see kill
*Get Really Wasted With* hmmm....
*Look Like* good question
*Talk To Offline* everyone

---D O. Y O U .E V E R---
*sit on the internet all night waiting for someone special to I.M. you?* nope. i get off at 11
*save aol/aim conversations* a couple times
*wish u were a member of the opposite sex* only once a day every day all day long
*cried because of someone saying something to you* not recently
*been rejected* a few times
*rejected someone* maybe
*used someone* more than i'd admit
*done something you regret* what's that? you regret not staying in europe?

-*-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-*-
*could u live without the computer?* not hardly
*color ur hair* not since it started growing again. i fried it blonde before
*ever get off the computer* pssht. i'm still here sren't i?
*how many peeps are on ur buddylist?* 17 hahahahahah
*like watching sunrises or sunset* you know it
*what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain* emotional pain.

->-N U M B E R-<-
*of times u have had your heart broken?* i have no clue. a broken heart is never whole cause you lose too many pieces when it falls.
*of hearts u have broken?* hopefully loads
*of guys u have kissed?* maybe... 3 or 4. cheeks only, though
*of continents u have lived in?* 2. cause over 2 months is a lifetime
*of tight friends?* less than i can count. more than i'd magine
*of cd's that u own?* over 50.
*of scars on your body?* maybe 50 on my arms and more from there
*of things in your past that u regret?* too few to mention

I KNOW: i need to grow up and get a life
I WANT: to go to the disco. show tomorrow
I HAVE: a pair of congested lungs
I WISH: things didn't turn out this way
I HATE: being at home still
I MISS: my boys in england, my sister a continent removed and my 8th grade and senior years.
I FEAR: far too much
I HEAR: the air conditioning system
I SEARCH: by using google
I WONDER: if i'll ever be normal
I REGRET: everything i've lost by being so fucking afraid of everything
I LOVE: too easily
I ACHE: in my chest for various and sundry reasons
I CARE: too much
I ALWAYS: wear underpants... well... almost always.
I AM NOT: as strong as i put on
I DANCE: like i was meant to
I SING: even if my voice is shitty cause someone'll like it
I CRY: so much less than i used to
I DO NOT ALWAYS: tell the truth
I HIDE: everything in layers of masks
I FIGHT: what never needed to be fought
I WRITE: more and less than i used to
I WIN: when i don't try or care
I LOSE: pieces of me when i miss you
I CONFUSE: me more than anyone else
I LISTEN: .
I CAN USUALLY BE FOUND: online
I NEED: to get out
I AM HAPPY: when i'm sneaking off and with my friends
I WANT: to know why i can't understand myself

>>-Last Time You-<<
*Smiled* when i picked up the mail
*Cried* monday... craig ferguson's dad died and i felt bad for him
*Danced* sunday evening
*Talked to the one you love* maybe last august?
*Hugged Someone* too long ago
*Told Someone You Loved Them* it's been a while
*Saw A Movie* saw legend of zorro two nights ago
*Sang* before my voice went crappy.
*Missed Someone* every day
*Went On A Road Trip* never
*Went Swimming* sometime in january
*Said No* can't remember. i typed it just a bit ago
*Said yes* hmmm...
*Stayed Up All Night Thinking* last night
*Wanted Peace* a lifetime ago
*Took some "Me" Time* last summer
*Slept* i woke up maybe 4 hours ago
*Went to the beach* going this summer
*Current Time* 3:43