settle for a girl... neither up or down...

sheesh.


it's hot. i'm wearing black. it smells like piss as i walk from my first job to here.


in other news, i'm much happier today than this weekend. minus the forgetting of my phone this morning.


i'm making plans to buy an ipod. and i defrag'ed my harddrive at home. i have almost no space on my computer, save for music. external harddrive, here i come.

chest feels tight. maybe i'm not over my sickness. doesn't matter.


got rejected for the england visit next year by my granmother. so much for having family there, huh?

my brother, father and mother are depressed as a result of this weekend. my sister's finally broken them down to hating her. (i mean, 10 years meant take-it-to-your-grave.) my grandmother doesn't understand how they can be depressed... they must just let themselves be. she's stronger than that and they should be too. hah. again with the not listening to me and denying we need psychiatric help (from my gramma, the almost psychologist. no wonder she stopped going to college.).






you're now updated on me. how about yourself?