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after debating it... and ignoring it. and chickening out the one time that i thought i would actually seek help.... i've made up my mind.

i'm going to make an appointment for a mental health screening of a fashion sometime during the next month. yes, i know that's putting off action, but i'm actuallly gonna do something about it sometime soon. i feel like shit all the time and everyone's pissing me off. and although i think that i may be able to talk about it eventually.... *sigh* i think i need to talk to someone outside of home and friends. it might work.


i think the problem is that i don't cry. or scream. i repress. but... i'm just... tired.