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it's a little early in the morning for this
(or maybe a little late at night, as i can't tell the difference between the two anymore)

went to see two movies today that i'd already seen and listened to the soundtrack that i listened to when we broke up
songs about how no one mourns the wicked, and how i was never the girl for
i never heard a "live long and prosper" sound so much like a "fuck you" before

gave my grandmother a copy of the autobiography that wasn't
the fiction that could've been
i don't couch the truth very well in lies

i haven't the money to do anything anymore, not that i ever had
considering dropping june classes for the simple reason that i don't have the funds to care for it anymore
could work longer hours and maybe pay for things

i miss being able to get away
500 bucks roundtrip to london from NYC but that doesn't explain why i don't live there already

i think a change of scenery would do me some good
took today off the diet to feel better and promised that i am back on tomorrow, no tricks
is it july yet

clearly i've lost my mind for staying here so long
going to bed to speed tomorrow along
the night's not nearly as long when my eyes are closed