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god i'm freaking out right now.

mom woke me up about an hour ago to figure out what's wrong with her eye. said it felt like a bug flew into it. kinda itchy and uncomfortable.

i look. it's not that. i think she busted another blood vessel in her eye. it hurts when she turns her head, and blood's welling beneath her pupil. i kinda... freaked out and got my dad up to look (which was bad, since he pulled a muscle in his back and it really hurts for him to move), and he maaaaaaybe agrees with me. was gonna take her to the hospital immediately which freaks me out even worse and...

god. i just. i can't sleep. i'm scared that she's gonna lose the eye. that it's all my fault somehow. that it's really a sign her brain exploded. what the fuck ever. i don't actually know. i have no clue what to do in this situation and her doctor says wait til the morning BUT HE DIDN'T ACTUALLY HEAR WHAT HAPPENED, OK?



i'm just.... really scared and i've got another tension headache building on top of the one i already had and i really wish that today wasn't already boiling up in suck.

i like my mommy, ok? i don't want to lose her... not really.