wellownedbkup

i have no fucking clue what's going on. i've got an ache in my shoulders like i always did when i felt like i was going to cut. well, scratch... as i never actually had a hold on a razor. and i kept my pen knife nicely dull.

it's back. the same. so i've been doodling on my wrists. braille, arabic... and today, those dashed lines and "cut", like you find on coupons. and it worked, for a while. but the ache isn't going away and i can't believe i'm back at this same point.

i think it has to do with stress. you know those dreams you get when you're under stress? your teeth start shattering. at least, that's what dream analysis says is the link. it's all kinds of fucked up to wake up and see that it's really happening. one of my teeth is chipping. i'm actually picking out bits of a tooth. i'll say that it's... weird. really fucking weird to say the least.