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Aug. 4th, 2004
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Aug. 4th, 2004 03:50 pmi guess you could say that i'm bored. but i'm more concerned. i haven't seen a trace of anyone since last friday. and i know that catherine and ariel had this anime convention thing yesterday and i'm really wanting to know how it went. and i want to do something else with my life than just sit here and watch the time go by.
and i'm sick and tired of reading slash and waiting for something to happen. because nothing's going to happen. i'm the most boring person i know, dammit. even worse than i was before i started work. do you realize when i have a full time job after school... i'll be too dead to do anything??
yep. i guess you could say that i'm bored. because i'm not creative. and i'm not ready to do something more important. and i'm not here... at least, not in spirit. and i spend too much time worrying about what everyone else is doing and too much time dwelling on the past and not nearly enough time doing something with my life.
did you know that i'm waiting until november to write a book about nix? right now, while he's in my head... i can't. because it's a goal of mine to write 50000 words in the month of november. and get support for it. because, without support, i won't do it. and i can't see myself doing it now because there are so many other things on my plate. like...
boredom.
and i just wish i knew what was going on with me. why i can't seem to do anything important. or why i sent off an email today that made me sound so much more like an infant or a slighted lover than the friend that i'd like to be. i knew i'd always regret being me. i just didn't know it would happen so soon.
and i'm sick and tired of reading slash and waiting for something to happen. because nothing's going to happen. i'm the most boring person i know, dammit. even worse than i was before i started work. do you realize when i have a full time job after school... i'll be too dead to do anything??
yep. i guess you could say that i'm bored. because i'm not creative. and i'm not ready to do something more important. and i'm not here... at least, not in spirit. and i spend too much time worrying about what everyone else is doing and too much time dwelling on the past and not nearly enough time doing something with my life.
did you know that i'm waiting until november to write a book about nix? right now, while he's in my head... i can't. because it's a goal of mine to write 50000 words in the month of november. and get support for it. because, without support, i won't do it. and i can't see myself doing it now because there are so many other things on my plate. like...
boredom.
and i just wish i knew what was going on with me. why i can't seem to do anything important. or why i sent off an email today that made me sound so much more like an infant or a slighted lover than the friend that i'd like to be. i knew i'd always regret being me. i just didn't know it would happen so soon.
