drowning!Ophelia, Fat
Jun. 24th, 2008 01:48 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wellownedbkupFat, like it's the end all, be all of diagnoses. Fat, like it's the magical solution to problems.
Fat. Like saying my blood pressure is too high at my age and I need to be on a pill. Fat. Like my arm in a too-small cuff where I lose feeling in my fingers and where I bruise because the cuff is too tight. Fat, like she forgot the entire reason I was given the pill was to lessen the acid reflux.
Fat. Which is supposed to mean "lose weight and you will be able to breathe again." Fat, instead of taking tests and seeing an infection impacting in her lungs for 7 years before it nearly killed her. Fat, when now she has breathing problems as a side effect from asthma medication she never needed.
Fat. Which is supposed to mean "lose weight and you'll have less joint pain." Fat, instead of taking tests and seeing rheumatoid arthritis, that has gone untreated and now means she can't walk on her own power. Fat, when now she's lost weight and she's in constant pain from joints that no longer fit in their sockets.
Fat. Which is supposed to mean "your stomach pain comes from bad digestion." Fat, when she dies of stomach cancer that they never tested for and never treated until it was too late.
So to come into a doctor's office and hear that my role models never taught me about not being fat. To come in and hear that my problems will be solved (or lessened) by my losing weight. To hear hypocrisy like "I only tell you this because I care about you" or that "a self-sacrificing spirit will get you nowhere." Tell me. How can a doctor say that Fat is the end all, be all of my problems? How can losing weight be the solution, when you haven't looked at anything else?
Fat. Like saying my blood pressure is too high at my age and I need to be on a pill. Fat. Like my arm in a too-small cuff where I lose feeling in my fingers and where I bruise because the cuff is too tight. Fat, like she forgot the entire reason I was given the pill was to lessen the acid reflux.
Fat. Which is supposed to mean "lose weight and you will be able to breathe again." Fat, instead of taking tests and seeing an infection impacting in her lungs for 7 years before it nearly killed her. Fat, when now she has breathing problems as a side effect from asthma medication she never needed.
Fat. Which is supposed to mean "lose weight and you'll have less joint pain." Fat, instead of taking tests and seeing rheumatoid arthritis, that has gone untreated and now means she can't walk on her own power. Fat, when now she's lost weight and she's in constant pain from joints that no longer fit in their sockets.
Fat. Which is supposed to mean "your stomach pain comes from bad digestion." Fat, when she dies of stomach cancer that they never tested for and never treated until it was too late.
So to come into a doctor's office and hear that my role models never taught me about not being fat. To come in and hear that my problems will be solved (or lessened) by my losing weight. To hear hypocrisy like "I only tell you this because I care about you" or that "a self-sacrificing spirit will get you nowhere." Tell me. How can a doctor say that Fat is the end all, be all of my problems? How can losing weight be the solution, when you haven't looked at anything else?
